Unadorned by Roles and Pride
RAJ: In a recent conversation, I shared with you that “you are not to be the ball in a pinball machine whose path is determined by whatever it comes in contact with—bounced helplessly back-and-forth from here to there and yonder until gravity brings you to the end of a path undetermined by you. The fact of the matter is that you are always determining your direction. You are always determining your actions. And you are doing it either consciously or unconsciously, proactively or reactively, with purpose or without purpose—all of which mean ‘with Guidance or independently.'”
Today you are feeling like a pinball, and even though we have just read Lesson 39 from the Workbook which says, “My holiness is my salvation” and “[my] holiness is the salvation of the world,” it is not penetrating your frustration and making any sense to you. As a result, you ask, “Why is my holiness my salvation from this?” And your frustration edges it with sarcasm.
Well, here is the answer in a form you can recognize. Your holiness is your salvation from whatever “this” is because your holiness is your divinity, and your divinity, held in trust as you dally with the ego, is called the Holy Spirit. And the Holy Spirit is the active intelligent Presence of Mind which insists upon registering with you as your right mind. Therefore your holiness is far more than a descriptive adjective. It is your divinity, divinely active on your behalf, insisting upon being revealed to you and thereby replacing whatever “this” might be at any given moment.
The key point, here, is that whether or not you are paying attention, your holiness is actively engaged in this activity of your redemption and you are never for an instant abandoned, even though you abandon It and then give preference to your best judgment, your best ideas and your best theories. In these self-centered “circumstances,” your salvation lies in a single, simple act: engaging in the holy instant. And there is no other remedy!
Whether you are asking me, the Father or the Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit’s response is what will be reflected back to you. We all have the same function on your behalf. Why? Because there is no other function to be fulfilled. If we can be clear about that, then you can dare to become clear about that and keep it utterly simple.
That which is Whole can only teach Wholeness until the lesson is learned. And the student can dare to limit himself or herself to that apparently “narrow” task. Because the answer is utterly simple, complicating it with irrelevancies, no matter how tempting it might seem, will only delay what should otherwise be instantaneous. Fascination with “thinking” and “reasoning” and “justifying” and “arguing the fine points” drowns out the Father’s Voice by means of the practice of selective deafness—“But Father, I would rather listen to myself, and I will!”
Let’s be really clear about something. If you are feeling the pin-ball effect, humiliated by the loss of an apparent skill or ability to make things happen by means of your righteous authority and control, and if you are feeling a loss of self-respect and purpose as a result, you may rest assured that you are on the right track and getting the point. Why? Because whether you recognize it or not, you are at the threshold of humility—that state wherein you helplessly present yourself unadorned by roles and pride and accomplishment and step into the holy instant just being the desire to know the truth . . . not as “a seeker” of truth but as the hunger for it!
PAUL: Okay, what’s going on right now? It’s quite hard to stay awake.
RAJ: The best way I can put it is that there is a suggestion to the effect that there is safety and security in privacy — withdrawal. The suggestion is that involvement with me begets involvement with the world, making things more complicated and therefore subject to error. Just take a look at that for a moment.
If you look back over the time we have spent together you will see and remember that there were small thresholds which you moved across, and each one was an expansion into a greater involvement. You started out in a meditative state with your eyes closed, whether we were talking with one individual or a whole group. Then, there came a time when I told you to open your eyes and you were afraid that the increased sensory information would interfere with your hearing me. But it wasn’t true, and you got used to it almost immediately. Then, there came a point where I had you get up out of your chair and move around on the stage, or even go down into the group and interact with them where they were sitting.
You can see where I’m leading. Now, even though I’ve been talking about it for years, I’m putting you in the position, together with Susan’s help, of Listening to me on the run, as it were, in the arena of daily activities which require on-the-spot decisions. And this doesn’t allow you to go into the controlled environment of your mental cave, with its perfect peaceful undisturbed environment, before having to voice the decisions or engage in the actions which Guidance reveals. You think you can’t do this, just as you thought you couldn’t maintain a stable connection with me with your eyes open, or moving around. But, you can.
In this situation, however, it is a bit different. The world isn’t in your presence because it’s attending a spiritual workshop, expecting us to share the truth. The waitress, the bank teller, even a family member, are all engaged in their activities for their reasons, from their perspectives, and you have no way of knowing what our response will be. This requires a real stretch of trust. The problem is, you don’t want to do this. It asks too much of you. It asks more than you can give. But let me give you a little hint to give perspective. If you are silent, joined with me or the Holy Spirit by bringing your attention to us, you are being the presence of the Father in expression. In silence! That you can do, can’t you? And that’s the beginning of letting me/Us respond to everything.
Obviously, letting me respond to everything in every waking moment requires a degree of attentiveness that you are not used to. To you, it seems unreasonable, unfair, and . . . “is this really necessary?” It reminds me of when you and Susan purchased your first brand-new car and you were impressed and somewhat overwhelmed by the level of luxury which the Taurus had, compared to the used cars you had previously been driving. You asked me, “Why this car?” And you meant, “Why one so nice?” And my response to you was, “What level of poverty would you rather have established?” Well, likewise, “What level of unconsciousness would you rather establish than being always conscious?” You see what I mean?
What do you think it means to “Let that mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus”? And do you think that means something different from, “My holiness is my salvation”? What level of holiness would you rather establish? A little bit holy? Or wholly holy? Being holy by appointment, or for a scheduled gathering suggests that holiness is temporary, a garment to be put on for special occasions, and hung up in a special closet when you’d rather not be quite so conscious.
I cannot be any clearer than this. This is what it’s all about! This is the grand lesson of A Course in Miracles. The sudden shift of perception, which is the definition of “a miracle,” is you shifting from being self-directed to being God-directed. It is the shift from, “My will be done,” to “Thy will be done.” It is the shift from the illusion of independent creativity to the reality of being co-creator with God. Permanently! This is why your holiness is your salvation and your holiness is the salvation of the world.
As long as you dally with the ego and your divinity is held in trust in the form of the Holy Spirit, as long as you insist upon practicing selective deafness, you will experience “the human condition” in all of its unholiness instead of your salvation, even though it is inseparable from you. To put forth the effort, to exercise the self-discipline of bringing everything to the Holy Spirit—your divinity—in dialogue, in actual communion, is unavoidable and will require you to persist in the face of your occasional faithlessness and absolute confidence in the impossibility of it all.
The way Home is not unfair and is not a punishment. It is guaranteed! It is a simple practice of the holy instant, wherein you shut up, desire to know the truth, and yield to God. It only seems difficult because it requires you to abandon the freedom to be at odds with your Father, your Brothers and Sisters, and your Self.
As the saying goes, “One with God is a majority.” The power of what you divinely are in all of its omnipotence is on your side. It’s called your holiness, and it is your salvation.