“Fear is arrogant. It expects to see
what God did not make.”
PAUL: Okay, I am caught in an unforgiving state of mind. It revolves around a particular individual. Or at least this one seems to be the justification for it. How can I be around this one and not be angry? I realize that all the thoughts and feelings I have do not embody a perspective gotten from you. Why am I so angry? I know it’s not reasonable or healthy. What’s the hooker? What’s the unseen irresistible temptation?
I sit here listening, feeling angry and vulnerable and hearing nothing. I do not want to be angry, nor do I want my day to be tied up in this nonsense.
RAJ: I understand. The way out is always found in joining—abandoning isolation and independence. Being angry, getting justice, is never right, even though it feels absolutely right. Claiming victimhood never reveals your innocence nor that of the so-called “victimizer,” and ultimately that is the need! If it is ultimately the need, then it is immediately the need. Address it immediately, when the anger begins, and do not let victimization grow into a self-centered addiction!
PAUL: So, how do we address it right now?
RAJ: You must remember that the function of the holy instant is redemption.
“Your brother has a history of believing he is a body.
Nevertheless, he stands like you, and with you,
at the edge of the Unknown.
Ask for both of you to see
what you truly know.”
In every single case redemption is the goal, the purpose, the function of the holy instant . . . and redemption must be your reason for employing it. Anger and revenge seek the opposite result, absolutely denying you the benefit—the transformational benefit—of the holy instant in which God’s laws prevail!
At the outset, or even in the midst of judgment and anger, you must find that bit of Sanity in you which recognizes that no matter what the issues or the justifications, indulging in their practice is absolutely destructive. Anger and judgment have no constructive attributes! This will allow you to shift to the holy instant with redemption as your goal [since that is its function] and open up communication with the Holy Spirit or me, as you have done just now.
You must reread the Pope’s new book: The Name of God is Mercy. Mercy is what the holy instant is all about. In fact, it is the only thing the holy instant is about! Whenever Mercy is absent, Love is nowhere to be found. Whenever Love is absent, you are not fulfilling your Function and you are unfulfilled!
To extend Mercy where there is no call for Mercy is an empty act. And not taking offense at a call for Love, especially if it is mean-spiritedly directed at you, may be difficult. But answering that call is the act of Mercy full of the transformational power of the presence of God. That is what the holy instant is all about, and that is you fulfilling your purpose.
I will be very frank with you. Stop using platitudes and principles, stop using quotes and one-liners when you respond to a call for Love. That is not Mercy. That is not involvement. It is a way to stand at a distance while appearing to be close and caring. They are gifts of “things,” not you—the holy Son of God—looking into your brother’s eyes and making the gift of remembering God.
Mercy is more than an intellectual response—the spouting of a theory or principle. It is more than the provision of a set of orderly intelligent behavior patterns with the accompanying suggestion that if practiced, they will transform one’s life. An orderly mind untouched by the Fathers Love DOES NOT beget an orderly life. No.
Mercy involves being undefendedly present with the one who needs Mercy so that he or she can be seen without any filters you might introduce, and then listening for the Holy Spirit’s gift of Mercy, Love, and sharing It with this Brother or Sister whom you are not holding yourself separate from. This means that the holy instant is an act of brotherhood more involving than you might have thought, because it makes the gift of you reflecting the Father’s Love with intimacy. And that is Mercy!
“The holy instant is the interruption
of your expectations as well as the place where
that which you are not expecting can register with you.
Remember that the holy instant is a gift where
gratitude replaces the proof of worthiness which your
expectations require. God will fill the place
where expectations had obscured your real
willingness to let the moment be
blessed and filled with