WANT TO “KNOW THE TRUTH”
PAUL: Good morning, Raj.
PAUL: I am aware of a very strong resistance to hearing you, this morning. What is going on? What is it I’m afraid of?
RAJ: Paul, in spite of our recent morning conversations, you are threatened by the idea that you have lost communication with me. Do you think you made those conversations up? Our line of communication is excellent, clear, and constitutes you being in your right mind.
If you are not able to hear me, it is not because communication has been lost . . . only interfered with. If you hear me incorrectly, it is not because communication has been lost . . . only interfered with! It is important to understand this because something can be done about interference, and the experience of it doesn’t put you at a disadvantage, whereas loss of communication does.
Now, we are right back where we started. You have one task at hand, which is to choose your Teacher and persist in keeping the line of communication active by dialoguing with me about everything. You are being actively hated, which requires you to take action in order to be free of its debilitating effects. But notice that I did not use the word “defend.” The only “defense” that works is disregard, which is easily accomplished by being occupied in communion with me or the Holy Spirit. Neglecting to engage in the two-step, the holy instant [the practice of disregard], subjects you to the effects of mean-spirited mental manipulation, and so you cannot afford to be passive about the neglect.
Sooner or later you must want to “know the Truth” with passion, which will overrule the so-called authority of “teachers” who do not give voice to the Voice for Truth. It’s simple: The teacher you choose to listen to, you will hear. The one you choose not to listen to, you will not hear. Do not address or deal with the voice for fear in order to get rid of it. That is not disregard and will only keep you bound to it more securely. Abandon it, and turn your attention to the Holy Spirit or me with diligence — on purpose — and you will be free.
Again, you cannot be lazy about this! When you are establishing a new habit, a new way of being, you must be persistent, purposeful and committed. As in meditation, when you lose your focus of attention, simply bring your attention back to it — over and over, and over again if necessary. Do not engage reaction. Simply [quietly, unemotionally] bring your attention back to me.
All of this you know. The learning for you, at this point, lies in the practice, the exercise, the self-discipline it takes to experience the renewing of your mind, and doing it without complaint. Remember that the ego would love for you to complain about the effort it takes to abandon your allegiance to it. It knows that it will delay the emancipation. It’s a ploy, not a legitimate objection. Be alert to it and don’t play into it! Watch how you are using your mind, and learn.